7.30am, it is the most beautiful morning here, I couldn’t stay in bed one minute longer! (and the coffee was calling!) You know, I have never noticed much change in my bank account since I stopped gambling, I really did think I was going to be rich……the reality is, that all my bills are paid up and there is plenty of food, money for fuel and cigarettes ( past tense) The Christmas shopping is almost done, I haven’t had to think about finding that money. But I am noticing now, since stopping smoking that there is actually money in the bank. In the savings. It is a nice feeling. Im disgusted about how much we have spent over the years, it would trump my gambling losses by 10!!! Last night I was in bed by 9. I had worked an 11hr day. If I was still in action though, I would have found time to gamble. Just a little stop on the way home. Id be feeling pretty lousy right now. Instead, im here, writing to you, thinking how lucky I am to have such a beautiful day ahead of me. Im going to my family Christmas catch up and I cant wait to see everyone. They also have a pool, and its going to get to 32c so the kids will be happy! I hope you have a lovely weekend, you seem to have your triggers sorted and I think that’s a huge help. And hey, you will probs feel a hell of a lot better with a bit more sleep! Love K xxx
