Hey everyone,
Thanks for your replies. Charles, I can understand that they don’t trust me but their actions are making things worse. Things have calmed down at home and my sister knows that I am getting help from some people who are experienced in the field of addictions, so she is basically watching and I believing waiting for me to screw up. i know that sounds really negative, but you don’t know my sister. In fact from the last post, things got even worse and she is trying to define me by being an addict and saying that is all their is to me and she is not right. And she knows this but she has her own which I feel she is trying to push back onto me. Anyway, enough about that. I am still CLEAN! I haven’t even been counting. I touch base with my accountability partner often. I started reading a book they told me that I need to read along with a different book which is helping how I see money.
Sorry I haven’t posted, been crazy busy at work. And have just had some boy drama which has been a welcome distraction. And my internet is VERY temperamental.
My other sister pretty much told me she would never forgive me, or like me again for the things I have already done. And pretty much their is no hope of ever having a relationship. I cant believe how much this affected them, even though I never took money from them or anything like that. I screwed u p, can’t undo it can only move forward. But its sad cause I feel like I was even before cg ALONE with no family by my side. But at least I can still make a life out of something. And when I do get married 🙂 he will never have to experience the ugliness of cg.