I’m sorry to read of your predicament. And whereas I can completely understand that all you can think of is how you to get your money back, that just is not going to happen.
Unfortunately its not your money now. One of the hardest things when coming to terms with any addiction, I think, is learning to accept. And until you accept that money has gone you will probably struggle to move on.
You may get some benefit from attending your local GA.
Some people don’t view investing as gambling, as your post points out it most certainly is. Even the smartest investors with the safest options in carefully selected diverse portfolios can go wrong. But no need to tell you that, you were a genius.
I think that is a thought many CG’s have when things are going well and they’re on a winning streak.
It dosn’t sound as if you’re destitute Daniel, if you have any doubts that you will end up gambling/investing what you have left it might be prudent to ask a close family member to help manage your finances for the time being.
I would like to suggest you use the helpline which can be found on this site for a private one to one conversation with someone who will be able to offer you more specific and direct guidance.
I do wish you well. And well done for posting I know how difficult it can be.
Rest assured, that although you may not be the genius you thought you were you are far from unique in what you have done.
You sound like you do have a smart head on your shoulders, well at least you did up til 3 years ago.
I presume you are in the USA, the land of opportunity.
You can recover from this but you must accept that money has gone, and that aint easy.
I wish you well, take care.