I have read your thread when u replied to mine with very good advice, and i’m really impressed with your fight.
I want to comment on the guilt and shame feelings you have mentioned, as I feel exactly the same, I’m worried that something may happen and I will be forced to explain to my family that I was so stupid that I wasted my savings of the last 3 years and the upcoming 1 or 2 years also playing cards and that intelligent responsible man you have raised is nothing but a lie. but also I can’t say that i’m totally pleased with the previous me, who when he was successful and having enough money to save wasn’t that good man, and maybe this humiliation I feel is very useful for me on a spiritual level to realise how vulnerable is a human and be really humble and accepts this lesson and all the future ones while being broken and poor in spirit. knowing that my smartness and capabilities didn’t led me to a good situation and I need to improve and I do need God’s grace in my life.
I think you are a great mom and you are an impressive fighter, and you should not worry about people’s opinion in you as you are doing great job.
please excuse my english as it’s my third language, and i do apologize for being religious in my reply.