Hi Maverick.
Some of what you wrote above about how you were feeling,the why why whys of this addiction .can take anyone to their knees for days.
Months ,years.
And for some all they will be left with is the why why whys for the rest of their lives.A constant haunting .
Maverick please seek some counsling ,get your ASS back into a GA room .
I know GA is not for everyone hey perhaps including me.but for the love of GOD i also know living life One day at a time SUCKS.
And i dont mean the recovery days of one day at a time either counting recovery days just bites .
Does it really matter how many clean days one has, if they are still to sick to live them.
What if we knew on wich day we were going to die,omg would we count those days left ,in anticipation of it.
Or would we make the most of them?
Well wouldnt our little addiction love to get a hold of that info.
Any way Lee ,you are an amazing young man.
Time to let others know you too!
Hey i kinda like you,and i believe in you.
Why not try GA again ,or look into some counsling,rehab?
Still kicking fences hugs.take care Lee.
