I am a compulsive gambler and I have been for many years, in that time I have done many bad things and really hurt (not physically) my wife, children, parents and many others, this has a lasting effect on them and I know they don’t and never will see me in the same way ever again (though I am working hard for them to really remember the real me) as a compulsive gambler for over 20 years, hurting the people closest to me over and over again, false promises, lies, stealing, more lies, fabricated stories just to mention a few, these take there toll on people and I understand the people I have hurt will and have every right to be angry, I just have to let people have there opinions and they deserve them because I have caused them a lot of pain, we all need to express how we feel and we all have different ways of dealing with the pain that has been caused……………………..
A friend or Family member is going to feel upset with there compulsive gambler and so rightly so………….I can’t imagine the pain and suffering they go through, like Vera rightly mentioned on another thread I was reading at least we know we are going to “start the cycle” again and the friend or family member has no idea……….probably just hoping, praying we have seen the light.
I am sorry for all the pain I have caused, I truly am, I promise just for today I will not gamble, I am looking at my wife now browsing the next catalogue and my children playing the wi……….they all look happy and content I am sitting in the same room with them and while writing this chatting and laughing about silly things in life………….time is precious and I have wasted a lot………but just for today I will not gamble.
Thanks for reading, take care and wish you all the very best whoever you are.
Maverick