[tarasweettara]

Thank you for the information. I have been looking around at the resources here and did try the helpline but no one was there? I did see the schedule for groups and am on a mobile device but will try again when I get back to my PC. It seems like everyone here is helpful and considerate and I am looking forward to interacting with everyone as I document my journey. My crisis mood is lifting a little and that is when I start rationalizing and romanticiZing my gambling. I really need to hold on to the feeling of this deep guy wrenching despair. I am going to write my way through it and work through these emotions this time. I am no longer allowing myself to numb my personal pain with a keno machine and a beer. Thank you again Adele.