Hello Velvet,
I read your two posts yesterday, but I’d already written an awful lot, and I was actually at work and wasn’t doing what I should’ve been doing!
I appreciate your support and you answering my questions. I spoke to Amy yesterday and explained that I know it’s not a spa hotel, but I just wanted to know more or less the things we would get up to. When I received an email from her, there was a list of things that we could/couldn’t take, and not being able to take certain things made me feel like there was a “prison” feeling to it – this clearly isn’t the case. There’s a games room, TV, library, we can go out shopping, we do activities, etc. I think there will be moments of boredom (like always in life), but as you say, you’re there for one reason and that’s to learn and cope about being a compulsive gambler. You aren’t there for entertainment, so what do a few moments of boredom matter in the scheme of things, when the reward of having been there is so much more imporant?
I think my mum is disappointed about not being able to go and see where I’m going to be, but I completely understand why they do it. I need to be there because I want to be there, there’s no point in anyone holding my hand and dropping me off – it’s not a nursery.
I will tell my mum about the forums at some point – she’s very busy with work at the moment, but I’m sure she will find some time and use it. Whether she does or doesn’t, that’s her choice, but I do think that it would do her some good. My gran likewise. They are both very similar, and they panic massively – my dad on the other hand is very chill about the whole thing. What’s done is done, the solution is going to GH. He analysises everything and when you split big problems into little situations, it’s much easier to cope with. It’s funny though, as my parents cope in complete opposite ways.
The program now is 14 weeks, with an initial 2 weeks assesment period. I’m also panicing a bit as I don’t know what they “assess” and I don’t want to be told to that I’m not needed there after the first 2 weeks!
I’m now just trying to enjoy my time left, and hope that the 29th of August comes round as quick as possible.
Thanks for your support.
MrExon