I’m so glad you have taken this great first step of writing here. You also applied for the rehab – another positive step, showing that you are beginning to seriously want to turn your life around. So I would say, please do not be afraid. It is quite normal to feel afraid of such a big, new step in your life, but you will find you are welcomed and supported all the way. Your fears will be understood, but you will also find encouragement.
So do get in touch with the rehab again and set things in motion. But also, I hope you will explore this website and use all its resources to help you make a new start, while you wait for news about rehab.
It may not be easy, but it will be worth the effort. You have youth on your side still and you can gradually find a way of life that will give you some peace and contentment.
Best wishes,
Monique