Welcome from me, too. It sounds like you have made some important discoveries about yourself and have now taken note of these to help you make wise decisions to change the things that have been damaging your life.
It will be good to read more as you think and write about the next steps in your life of recovery.
Do feel free to ask questions, too, and make use of all the help there is here on this site, so you can be informed and also supported emotionally and practically on your journey.
Best wishes,
Monique
