Hello Meghna83 and thank you for taking the time to comment.
Yes I believe you are correct when you say that a line needs to be drawn and i say “no more” To be honest, the ‘fight’ in me has gone to try even think about trying to recoup any loses. I guess that can only be a good thing.
Today I had a productive talk with my Mum about it all. She was understanding and not judging (addiction being such a part of so many of my family) and we made a plan for going forward. She was keen to take my bonus for safe keeping until I can get my alcohol problems sorted and although I can see the benefits of that, I do still want to keep some autonomy. So whether I will give her my username/passwords or she can ask for a screenshot of my account twice a week, we are still to decide but I will have some accountability which I really haven’t had before.
All my savings that I lost was being put aside for me to attend University for 6 months to help further my career so my bonus is even more important now than ever. I’m currently feeling good that it will now be soley used for something productive and not just to be drunk, gambled and squandered.
Sorry to hear about your recent losses but well done on going 41 days. I hope that you are finding each day at little easier and a day comes soon where you don’t think about gambling at all.
Stuart