Hi Giorgio
Hope you are well. And this addiction is certainly a Terrible affliction and I am sorry you have this.
Good that you have recognised this and need help. It is very hard to get do this all by yourself.
I tried and failed and nearly ended up dead with suicide attempts.
My family saved me in my darkest hours and also many people on This site have been a glad resource.
Read my story and you will see you can easily recover and there is certainly a way ahead for you.
https://www.gamblingtherapy.org/en/first-post
Tell your family everything and that you need thier help. I am sute they will be there for you.
Let us know how you get on.
Thanks, kind regards, Paul