Hello Annabelle,
It was good to meet you in the group and I hope we talk again soon. There is a “New Members” group currently open and tomorrow there is a group for friends and family where you can talk real time to others in your position.
Reading your first post i can see that you ahve already made some tough decisions. You are clearly going to have to make future tough decisions whe you decide if and when you allow him back into your home. Using support will make you stronger and in a better position to make those decisions. Keep posting here, keep going to your Gamanon meetings. I look foward to reading about your progress here and to speaking to you again in a group soon.