welcome to the site, it is great that you have found gambling therapy.
I understand what you are going through right now the feeling that you can’t bear the pain of no one to share this with, I spent far too many years keeping this addiction to myself, which created the perfect opportunity for the addict me to continue the gambling which is due to the. Fact problem gambling thrives on secrecy.
I recently told members of my family, I did it via email, they do live far away and I found that by writing I was able to explain my decline into gambling.
I understand that you do not feel ready for this right now, I know we are safe when we have no money to gamble, gambling free time gives us a chance to put blocks in place, I don’t know if you gamble in the physical world or online, which ever it is, we must in the early days make it impossible to gamble, it’s a long hard road but there are many people with the right support have achieved happy healthy lives again on this site.
Firstly, we need to limit the means to gambling once we can do that we can then start to look at the reasons why we gamble and all This takes time Angie.
We are all here listening to you and each of us while our stories maybe different, understand what pain you are in.
I hope to see you in one of the groups Angie, you are no longer alone with this.