Good to hear from you again, P. I think you are doing well in the face of such strong ‘attacks’ – not sure if that is the right word, but it sounds like you are being ‘bombarded’ by stuff you do not want and it is a tough battle. Do you find some release/relief after you write things out in some detail? If you do, maybe write more?? You said before you did not like to post negative things, but, if it helps, everyone will be pleased to read and share with you. The negative has to be dealt with and no one wants it to take over your life.
You have got a range of support and that is good – use everything within reach that can help you. As you say, it has to be moment by moment, day by day, but I am sure that the more you practise letting go and resisting gambling, the more you will reap rewards. Maybe it is not feeling like that yet, but I believe you will see better times.
I hope you have a useful conversation with your doctor, too.
All good wishes,
Monique
