I am glad you sought help here it shows you want to have a gamble free life.. if you are feeling suicidal please phone your doctor, counsellor, hospital.. suicide is a permanent thing to termporary things going on in your life now that can change.
Gambling addiction is tough but you can have recovery by doing some simple things.. you can put things in place to stop you from gambling but you have to desperately want it too…
Ban from places you gamble at
Get your sister to help control your money
No money equals no gambling
Join gamblers anonymous
go to counselling
Reach out for hellp.. talk to people.. ask for help.
Break your day down.. just for today dont gamble
At the start of the day say just for this day i wont gamble… break it down to hours if you ahve to.. just for the next hour i wont gamble and delay those urges to go..
Check out help in your area..
Keep posting here, the good the bad and the ugly.. whatever you feel now will pass and is changeable.. it is not permanent.. when you get some time off gambling. things really clear up and you will start to see solutions
There is always rehab too if things are out of control.. there are many many ways to recovery and you can use as little or as many as you like.. for me i would say use all you can when you are in the state you are in….
Dont keep your feelings a secret.. tell people how you are feeling.. suicide is not the answer, it will ruin the lives of everyone you know for the rest of their lives..
Work through it.. get help.. you have voiced your concerns here, voice your concerns to someone there. where you are in real life, face to face.. go to a hospital and talk to them.. if you feel suicidal. Its acting impulsively that causes the destruction, put eveyrthing on hold.. wait things out.. talk to people
There are solutions.. please try to grab hold of them.. keep us updated.. this community will be here for you if you keep posting and coming for help.. hang in there.. we know what its like.. you are not alone
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