Glad you are here.It took me around until I was 40 something to realize I was a compulsive gambler. And I started around 12 years old when I would go with dear old dad to the horses .I am in no way cured. But I am now under control.My wife handles all of my money.When I was young like you I started playing horses my dad would place my bets.It was funny because I would always win and he would lose and then borrow my money. He almost never payed me back of course.But when I grew older I didnt win so much and the disease took over. I would steel cheat and lie to get money. I would think I had it under control. But each time I stopped for a while and thought I could control it I only lost more and finally when I was out on the street My wife threw me out for a while and for some reason she took me back when i convinced her I was “cured”. Then I did it again without her knowing. I had gotten an inheritance from my mom and blew that also.Anyway enough about me . I am glad you are here and seeking help.Welcome . The people here know how you are feeling and will try to help you. It is up to you to listen and try to help yourself. A lot of us have won large sums at first but that only helps the disease dig in to your soul and takes over. There will never be a big enough win you will always lose and give it back. You should see if there is a GA meeting around where you live .I go to meetings and they help me out greatly . Talk yo you later my friend
