Thank you for your posts all of you ,i just want to say weve moved ,still a ton of work to do,but for over a the last few weeks before the move ,i was so scared that this was just a trick,and that some how some way my past was lurking in the back ground to ruin it all,as it is not just my past but sons too.
Well we are in here now ,but i still feel like i need to look over my shoulders as i close the door.still going back to old place for odds and ends,check mail and what not,when i walk through those doors the SMELL omg i destroyed the place thanks to my depression ,im now banned to the great outdoors to smoke and i have been trying really hard to maintain a normal life but been only a few days im afraid of the crash i will have,Will the fun like a new toy ware off and i will not want to play any more and the depression ,creep back in ,i can feel it its there but last few days i have been so distracted and busy ,it only creeps up in little place like looking out a window briefly i will get a overwhelming feeling of sadness.
But this place is a positive new start and will need a few months perhaps to see hey we made it.
Well kids did anyway,i just came along for the ride 🙂
Sunny day today,tons to do .thanks for listening.
