He does indeed seem as though he is trying. We do seem more distant, but I think that is probably more me with my guard up. He tries to get close, but I just feel weird about it.
He does tell me what they talked about at both his GA and church meetings. I try to continuously ask him if he feels down or if he’s being triggered and he says no. He maintains that he knows what he has to lose and he’s no longer willing to risk that. He doesn’t get upset when we talk about it or if I get angry and lash out. I think I’m just so scared at the thought of trying all of this once again only for it to turn out to be a failure!
So. many times I’ve gotten my hopes up high and had positive thoughts only to be let down time and time again!
I have talked to my sister, but we really hadn’t talked about it much since it happened. I don’t really feel I have anyone I can confide in who really be understanding and helpful.
I hope so as well!
Thank you so much!