Firstly congratulations on the milestone and u too agree having people to share this journey with is making it bearable for me. I had a milestone of my own today obviously some people will never get to know the extent of my problem as I dont want it to interfere with things like my job where I have always kept it separate to my addiction but a colleague who to there credit doesn’t know the path I’m on was willing me to back Manchester United at 50/1 tonight when they were 3-1 down, it was all banter and a long shot but I said I didn’t have my bank card and laughed it off , of course they won and in the past I might have had £20 on it just for the crack, was I guttered I didnt win tonight no not at all it would have been lost somewhere else I didnt give it a second thought which I cant describe how good this step feels as just the other week I would have maybe won on that then visited casino on way home as I’d won or spent the night on my phone on the slots so I’m chuffed with my outlook now and I’ve felt the most positive I have since stopping.
Secondly that’s deep stuff mate and I’m glad you aren’t going to break your familys heart again . Thanks for sharing , I dont know what I would do was I to lose my family I’ve been with partner since we were 19 I’m 30 now and have 2 sons I have played over in my head what it would do to me but I still gambled but now knowing and hearing others stories in here I could have lost it all and then I would have been in a real downward spiral it possible could have been the end , I have finally realised how close I was to that been a reality and knowing if I am to go back into that life of throwing my money down the drain I will possibly definitely lose them . I know now I’m not willing to let that happen.
We can do this stay strong 1 day at a time but we can and will do it. Let’s reach more milestones 🙂