Had a long lie in today .
My flu needs its sleep and I do feel so much better !
I feel anxious because I feel overwhelmed – in truth by circumstances outside my control but which still impact greatly on me .
Today I can control only what I can control so today is all about house work and nice meals.
Interestingly , since I have started buying really good quality food I wake up and think about the lovely tasty meal I will be having rather than having chocolate with my morning coffee.
How little did I care about me to develop such appalling eating habits ?
I could spend £500 on a night ‘s gambling and then buy the cheapest cuts of meat! I don’t think I will ever eat a pork chop again.
My thinking about self care is totally warped but getting there.
I go away next weekend and I have decided to buy new Pyjamas for the trip .
Night wear has been old t shirts and horrible Xmas gifts for the last decade . Having nice nightwear is kinda a really big deal for me – no one will see it but I will know that I am worth it ! Anyone else understand what I mean?
Urges still strong – the lottery is there in my thoughts all the time -as much as slot machines ever were .
Onwards and upwards !