Had a bit of a relapse today – really not sure what the trigger was… I think it was just looking at my balance and seeing that I could afford to lose a little.
Of course the reality is – I’m still paying off large debts as a result of my previous gaming, so ‘afford to lose’ is just kidding myself.
Trying not to beat myself up too much – because I’ve been several weeks clean.. I used to relapse quite a bit when I first started but the overall trend was less and less gambling.
I thought I got to the point where it was over for good – but I guess today proves I can’t be too careful.
I guess I’ve been down in the dumps recently because even though I’ve been much happier since I stopped gambling – looking at my finances just reminds me how I have to pay the majority of my income towards debts for the next 2 years (assuming I stop)
I guess I need to try and re-frame those 2yrs and try to see it as not that much time – keep my head down with hobbies and other things in the meantime.
I’m going to try to out-do my last longest streak of non-gambling, this time I will try to fight back when the itch comes on – I’ll think of you all when doing that.
Let’s see if we can do the rest of 2017 bet free – I do hope that Gamstop comes into force by then as promised.
Thanks everyone!