Guilt and remorse are very common Andy. Feeling we deserve nothing for the damage we have caused by our selfishness is another CG trait. (I still feel I am not entitled to things from time to time.)
Remember Andy, that its going to take time to heal. Time to restore trust. Time to forgive yourself.
The great thing is that you took that first step and told your wife. Admitting you have a problem is a huge move. You need to be gentle with yourself now . It s early days, but I can guarantee you that things WILL improve, (READ MICKY’s POST ON THE JOURNAL THREAD).
Keep talking and posting.
As CGs we have punished ourselves enough . Gambling is very destructive. When you begin to restore your relationships and your finances you will begin to feel better.
One day at a time!
Good “luck” in recovery!
