Harry, huge apologies for forgetting about you and the staff. Very rude of me.
I have been thinking a lot about why I gamble. I used to believe I could win money. Even when I win I lose it it again, so that can’t be it. Do I enjoy the challenge of the game? Don’t think so, I get bored of poker quickly and start calling random cards for a laugh. That night 2 days ago on BJ was the most I have ever ‘won’ even though the winning was recouping losses. There is part of my brain that is frighteningly intrigued by that.
I think I have continued gambling, despite knowing it is bad for my mental health, because i have nothing else. It seems to stimulate something and I think I am punishing myself as well. SO doing something that hurts me, AND losing money knowing that when I get caught I can feel sorry for myself again, woe is me etc etc etc. There is a strange cycle going on here and one I must break.
Which brings be back to GRT? What is my GRT?
Smokers have vapes, nicotine gum and various other things.
Smackheads have methodone.
What can I replace my gambling with. It needs to be something that gives me the same rush, endorphins.
Answers on a postcard please.