Are gamtalk same as gamcare? If so I have posted previously my views on gamcare. Superficial and ineffective counselling….
let’s look at this loneliness. We nurture but don’t often get nurtured ourselves or when we were on those few occasions failed to recognise it in my case… Laura talks about it too. I have had counselling that I paid for during changes in my life. In my most connected moments, I am not lonely cos you have the inner connection which feels loving and peaceful and strong. Am I connected today? At times, at others worrying about my wasp sting lips lol and hoping it doesn’t go into a full blown reaction. I don’t think it will but I am not taking any of this crap anymore. My body knew when it threw up on Monday. Imalso,feel a little wiped out but that’s the meds again. But I am really interested in why we do not appear to get our needs met. In a way I am lucky cos I just got bought a macdonalds cheeseburger by Pete. He is broke and neeeds urgent dental care so all is tight. He gave me some cigs. My physical needs for physical surgical are kinda met, and my emotional ones 75 per cent with GA and my journal and gma friends. But the need to have a close union with another where we can talk about emotions. Definitely not and rarely has been. I have always been the one that earns the money and talks with others, others come too and talk about their emotions. But I have not often had this reciprocated. why? ga asked me if I was co dependent. My answer was no as I want to leave! And I have spent long periods of time working away from home. Aside from the dependence right now on pete for survival. Thats different, I think cos I am not well. Is this disconnectedness just symbolic of the culture we live in? Where families disintegrate or are geographically all over the place? What is it that causes this in us. We all have an inner yearning for connection to God, thst us part of the human condition. Is that what it is? Or do humans have a basic need to be heard, acknowledged and understood. Hashtag, who are we?
