As usual Mr Exon, a very well written post. I don’t know what constructive advice you’ll be offered though.
The thing is it pays to vent and get things off your chest even if you feel nobody is listening or that nobody can really understand where you’re coming from. Sit and stew on things and it can lead you to making bad decisions.
Your post certainly does come across as aggressive and I think that its only natural to feel that way with what you have described.
I cant offer you any advice really but I hope when you’re sticking your two fingers up and doing what you please the during the next four weeks that you keep your awareness about you at all times.
There may be a multitude of reasons that your Mum is being this way, likewise your mate. I don’t think you should let people walk all over you but for the time being, at least until you’ve been to GMA, its probably best to ‘let sleeping dogs lie’
It might feel at times that its you against the world, just don’t let it get to you mate. You’ve shown you can stand up and fight against gambling and for any CG that’s probably the biggest fight we’ll ever have. But don’t let it sneak back in because you’ve let your guard down. I’m not suggesting you have but when consumed with anger and uncertainty, your addiction will be looking for a chink in your armour.
Take each day as it comes, keep posting your feelings good and bad, I think that will help you more than anything.
Enjoy your cricket!
And your pint.