Hey Ray,
Times are tough but just try to hang in there. This addiction will be the hardest thing you will ever have to overcome in your life.
I think you definitely need some additional measures in place to prevent a 3rd relapse.
Those casinos/online casinos you still have access to. Why have you not self-excluded from them?! The addiction will try to convince you in many ways you don’t need to do it but if you are serious about overcoming this soul-destroying affliction, you need to take proactive action now! If you leave any avenues open you only leave yourself to blame for any future relapses!
On top of this, seek additional emotional support. It may be wise to confide to your parents or partner at this time. Like you said the addiction has your physically and mentally on the brink and you’ll need all the support you can get. You may also want to look into professional help or attending GA. Having someone take over your finances in the mean time will also help a lot. Please take some extra steps to put a stop to these nightmare episodes that will only keep repeating themselves over and over if you don’t take action now.
Remember…it’s all about perspective. There’s people in lots of debt with much less support and financial stability than you (eg. You have a good job). Think about all the good thinga you still have. Health, family, career, youth and relationships. Don’t take these for granted as the addiction can very quickly take all of these away from you. True rock bottom awaits if you continue on this path…start turning around your life today by stopping gambling forever.