Right now I’m getting a craving to “chance it” … to be paralyzed at a key junction point in markets again … so I’m hopping on here to touch base couple peeps and write about it …
Things are going well, but I’m feeling an indecision and paralysis about mitigating risk … it’s that same pie in the sky thinking of wanting to hold out for a jackpot or things going “all positive” — the thing that happens 1% of the time … doesn’t make sense.
Right now I have the power to ensure certainty and remove uncertainty from my progress in gaining my life and financial personal capital/protecting it … the wise thing is to keep this flow going this way. My mind tends to want to drift back into uncertainty, hope, and all sunshine … I’m clinging to this and have a fear of missing out … a tremendous rushing fear of missing out … gambling always paints an immediate jackpot forthcoming and to stay high spun on it … black and white …
It feels like need and urge and must have … so I’m breathing slow and stepping back again. Once again I’m where I need to be — reminding myself to deal with risk first, not reward.
Today I’ll walk forward with that decision to choose risk protection first over reward — if I miss out, oh well. I won’t miss out on my life, and I’ll pay down some more student loan debt 🙂
I really have to make myself do it, because the urge to spend that money on a toss of a coin point in time is strong … this will be my 3rd time making a decision to pay down current debt faster instead of do something stupid/risky in the markets. My personal emotional capital will regenerate too. This feels tough to do … I feel myself fighting it … complaining …
I’ll post this post after I actually make the payment so I know I’m on top of it ……….
Okay ….. done! Safest decision made, guaranteed money saved long term by paying toward student loan debt instead with trading money. No overleveraging. Time to enjoy the day.