I’m glad to see you posting Skevoula.
Have a think about strengthening your support network by finding at least one person (friend or family member) to talk to face to face…to be your “phone buddy” when you’re in a vulnerable position. Then think about possibly seeking counselling, going to Gamblers Anonymous and working on building up your emotional strength and developing new coping strategies.
You can do this Skevoula…and I’m looking forward to seeing the changes you make!
Take care
Janey