Welcome to the forum. It was good to meet you in chat last night. I recognise all that you describe which is the addiction when it has taken a hold. All we need to do is really decide we have had enough, well and truly. Is the exhaustion, the self loathing, the depression, the obsession worth it? And most of all is ignoring life going on around us worth it? There are many things we can do. Consider going on the gma women’s programme, itis excellent, particularly when we have slipped down that slope a long way causing untold damage to ourselves. Block online with gamstop which will Bar us from all U.K. licensed sites. Give your finances over to someone you trust for a while. Seek out counselling from Gamcare or other gambling addictions counsellor. The obsession can fade over time. The important thing is that we face it head on and realise we have a big problem that without support is very hard, if not impossible to stop. Keep posting with your progress. It is all one day at a time. The longer we stay off gambling, the better and different our days can become,
