Good to hear from you, Izzi. We share a not so pleasant past, but I am looking forward to sharing better days…the brighter side of recovery with one another. After all this time that you have been away, I am a little sad to be saying that I am only on week 3. But I do believe if we work on recovery long enough, eventually something clicks. I hold on to the thought that even if I have slipped and fallen along the way, I am better off than I was before I joined you all on this road to recovery. So here I am, and here I will stay. Oops, I just remembered that I committed to writing something on my thread every day. I haven’t been doing that. I have to be careful about making little promises that I don’t keep because I tend to beat myself up about them if I don’t follow through, and I usually don’t follow through. Especially important today, as I am enjoying a lazy morning and I am trying to get myself committed to some healthy habits. Consistency is not one of my virtues. It’s more like I consistently break my good habits and consistently continue my bad ones. Yikes! I do have work to do! I keep looking at the clock and thinking “get going” But, I also need to say, “forgive yourself. You deserve a day off, a day to focus on recovery, a day to strengthen my resolve…which has been shaky since my trip to Florida, you don’t want to gamble today, which is a good thing.”
Wait a minute! Am I feeling guilty about a day spent focusing on recovery??? I think I am!!! To be continued…
