Hi Anigdavis – sorry to read about your losses, but I guess you know that it means that you cannot gamble “normally.”
Self exclusion will help to put a barrier in the way, as will carrying very little cash or cards with you – just enough for day to day needs – but these are just barriers, the urges to gamble will come back and you will need to be strong. Try and get as much help and support as you can. Talk to supportive friends or (if available in your area) contact a self-help group like GA. There you will not be judged but you will be heard. Don’t feel ashamed – you have a problem, like some people have a problem with peanuts – you have to avoid gambling – or it will take everything you have. It can be tackled – I have been gambling free for several years so it can be done. Keep strong and get support. I wish you well.