[Stevie.g17]

Learning to ignore the cravings and desperate feelings of needing to feel the hit and the sound of the roulette ball more and more daily now , it’s still hard but fear is driving me I know this is it and my only shot to stop . As i know i i relapse i will self destruct , interestingly I am no longer focusing on past losses which I used to chase as a excuse to gamble and justify it, I am now concentrating on the future and to let it go.

I feel I’ve come so far already but I’m not fooling myself I have a lot further to go. Thanks everyone who still reads and encourages me it is much appreciated. I will check in daily if possible.

Let’s do this