Dear diary
When I saw this person I have not met for more than 15 years at the coffee house, I didn’t choose the easy way, I didn’t walk away. I introduce myself. This is an honest man who has handed me a sum of money many years ago. He is 68 years old now. I thought I would never have the chance to pay him back the money in this lifetime.
I visited him in his home, I told him what has happen to me in the past. He understands. I told him I do not have all the money now but I want to made amend, I plan to break it down into 20 monthly installments and passed him the first payment.
I am grateful and thankful to God for this chance. Maybe this man was send to save my recovery.
When I was gambling and drinking, I turn into this selfish, self-centered and self-seeking person, meeting him give me an opportunity to put into action his interest before mine. It will help me stay focus and committed to him first and not me for 20 months.
There is a strange quietness and peace in my life now. It is really a strange feeling, I do not feel unrest, insecure, discontend, dissatisfied, and fear, there is now this calmness and belief that everything is going to fall into place. It was so different one week ago.
