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How many times have I betted with my life? I was thinking of taking my life if I lose the next big bet. I lost in the end every single time. I didn’t know how but I survived and very quickly gather enough money to gamble one more time again but the ending was the same.
When I really hit the rock bottom and cannot find any more money to gamble, I tried to stop gambling for the first time, change happened and the quality of my life improve.
Every time I relapse and stop gambling again, thing always turn out better than I dream possible.