Hi Happy. It sounds like you need to give yourself some good sleep and rest. There will be other Meetings. It will be useful to have a ‘real time/place’ meeting. Could you find one a bit closer to home, but still not on your doorstep? Or even rethink going to something more local? There are a lot of advantages to finding local people who are in the same sort of situation. Just offering ‘food for thought’ …
I cried my way through my first GamAnon meeting some years ago!!
Best wishes,
Monique