Hi Angie, funny how it can be so hard to figure out what to do with ourselves. Its great that you are thinking of doing something non destructive, but I understand its not the easiest thing to figure out the question, what now?
Iknow It is hard to reach out, to take a chance, but maybe try a GA meeting and talk with one of the members? Or perhaps you have a hobby or talent or interest you haven’t tried out for a while? Not sure if you have Meetup online where you are to join a group of some kind. After gambling so long I have found it hard to break the pattern and try something new as well.
Anyway, its great you are thinking about it, something good is bound to come about if you keep looking and keep trying.