Fundamental obsession may not be experienced as a thought of gambling, but fundamental obsession can only gets worse. The pain of daily living builds up inside us and we have to vent it.
We experience this obsession as a basic preoccupation with ourselves and how we feel. It is about how we experience the world.
Those of us who have stop gambling for long periods of time without a spiritual solution know the pains of fundamental obsession all too well.
Life is unsatisfying. We are constantly agitated and restless. We have a deep sense that life is treating us unfairly. We are constantly trying to adjust the circumstances of our lives in an attempt to find some comfort.
No matter what we try, we do not seem to be able to get any peace of mind. We may have a vague sense that something is wrong with us, but we do not know what it is.
Many of us find that GAMBLING provided us with temporary relief. We gamble to cope with the pain of fundamental obsession.
It was day 4 of abstaining from Carbohydrate last night.
I always feel tired from work on Friday. This discomfort triggered me last night, it tells me to eat carbohydrate, it will make me feel good.
The thought tell me to relapse last night and return to recovery on Monday. It was very tempting. The same temptation occurred to me many times in gambling. I may suddenly feel a craving to entertain myself with gambling.
I want to relieve myself from tiredness and free time. I thought gambling can make me feel good, but how many times have I regretted this decision when I lost my money.
I was tired last night, the solution was proper rest. I tried to sleep early but could not fall asleep.
I remember reading about doing something physical such as exercise when I have craving and urge to relapse. I immediately went for a slow jog, I did 3 km in 26 minutes. I perspired a lot.
I wanted to relapse, but I did something different like jogging. It works for me last night. It helps me stay abstinent last night.