it is so frustrating when you know what you need/have to do but claiming that control back that gambling takes from you is such a battle. The more i relapse the more i realise that i really don’t like the person i am when i gamble, it’s a very isolated world but not to like yourself as a person is a big statement, i already placed a bet for today, i did this yesterday as i am working all day. i think the best option is for me to pay my bills early, fill the car and get some shopping in so there isn’t money left for gambling. i know i am ready for this and i am not giving up. last month i didn’t have food for 3 days, i bought the dogs food and treats, i had a little left for basic food for me but i gambled it and of course lost it, i swore i would never go there again and yet here i am again, 1 step away. GT is the only place where everything makes sense. You are all amazing individuals
