Pain
Pain is the touchstone of Spiritual Growth.
Recovery
The price for serenity is Self-Sacrifice.
Dear diary
I didn’t know what was happening to me in 2017. Everything look like they are falling apart in my life and I started to exercise again.
1. I did not like to jog over distance. I would run out of breath many times, it feels like suffocating or dying. It is very painful and stressful.
2. Many times, when I feel this pain, I wish to stop. Stop running and my pain will go away. It was so tempting to give in and just stop running.
3. Each time, I had to tell myself not to give up when it becomes stressful and painful, I have to remind myself not to give in to the temptation. Over 2 km, this surely happen a few times, I realize that I need to build up mental strength for the job. I need to dig into my mind for strength when my body was failing me until I finish the distance.
The truth
The pain and stress from running is shorter but sharper, more painful and intense than the pain and stress of not gambling, drinking, working,taking sleeping pill, and having sex.
If I can survive and manage the pain and stress from running every day. I will beat the pain and stress of not gambling, drinking, taking sleeping pill, and having sex every day.
Today was my 8th day of running, I can already feel that I was a little stronger seeing myself running longer and further.
