Hi kstep.
The first post is probably the most difficult to make so well done and welcome to GT. You will get lots of replies in the coming days. I just spotted your post as I was closing down for the night (3.30 hrs)
Use the Helpline, The Closed and Open Groups and follow the advice. It took me about 8 years ducking and diving on this site before I called a halt to the madness and I’m double your age.
Maybe we will meet in a Group during the week. In the meantime , stay close to GT, Lots of help/advice /support available.
God bless!
