I suppose all you can do is feel the feeling, OAJ!
Then what do you do with those feelings ?
Being on standby by for another let down is stressful. It really means your whole life is on hold. That would make me feel more sad than angry, I think. Once trust is broken in a relationship, I tend to feel used, but relationships wax and wane . Every one has different expectations and different needs. Any idea why you wait around for more of the same? One of the things that made it possible for me to gamble was my SO’s disinterest, as I perceived it. He never tried to stop me. (In fact I felt it suited him better when I gambled , in some ways). I had a friend then who insisted if I was his wife he would certainly have “clipped my wings” in the early stages i.e. let the air out of my car tyres every morning before I got up and frozen my bank account. Now that would deter a CG wouldn’t it!? But, for how long? It certainly would give the SO power over the CG. But would that be just another game? A Power Game, perhaps?
Personally, I would not want anyone to smother me. Part of me hates to be controlled. Yet, I often sat on casino stools for twenty hours or more in a stuporose state watching the door, hoping my SO would come to rescue me.
Gambling is a complex problem.
CGs are enigmatic souls.
You seem to be very caught up in the complexity of this situation.
Ever think of taking a break?
Just teasing out ideas interests me. I envy your companion in some ways.
