Feeling today has been a good day overall. I did not gamble and overcome a strong urge to make a “small” deposit. A few years ago when I lost my business it took with it a job I loved. It involved having to be creative, working at break neck pace and was always changing. When the business went under all that was lost and I was lost.
The Job I am doing now is rote and boring but is a means to an end. A possible way to build up the capital for my “restart” in life. I have spent the last few days going back to the places online where I used to frequent so often when I had it good. It felt like going home lol although much has changed with that industry in the 3 or so years I have been out.
It has kept my mind focused and alert and has increased my tentative hope for the future. I am starting from nothing and have to earn every penny to begin again as I cant even get a bottle of milk on credit. I have no idea if I will succeed but I am determined to give it everything I have.
Coming to this forum and the support I have in my short time here has helped me immensely I am so grateful for that and to you all. I have a long long way to go and the journey has only just begun. But if I with all my failings can think about starting again without gambling then so can others.