Fear and anxiety was so powerful and disturbing that it can distract me and take my mind away from my focus to stay gamble free.
Today I was reminded of something very real. If I do not have long to live, I would not have spend time on gambling. My time and money will be spent on people important to me, not on gambling.
I can understand that there are many others who needed the money more than me, I should not have waste it on gambling.
Gambling gave me false hope. I believe that it can get me more money quicker to love my family but what it does was trick and rob me of all my money fast too.
It really saddened me that I have turn away from the truth and hope in God and recovery because of fear, and replace them with the lies and false hope found in gambling.
