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Quite obviously I cannot do this!  At least not as easily as I had thought.  Went on a gambling binge again, made my whole situation worse by doing this too.  I feel really low, cant sleep or eat and have a raging headache!  The money worry is just making me ill.  I just want to be normal and do normal things when I wake up everyday.  I am so fed up with this addiction.
On a positive note I have finally got a place for online counselling from the gamcare website.  I start my first session on Tuesday.  I have to make the most of this and try harder, I so want this addiction out of my life badly!