Drinking and gambling maybe makes you feel like a “bigshot”, your world shrinks and at it’s center is you calling the shots. One more drink, one more bet. And the establishment likely will cater to that… they want your money as we know. And maybe it makes you feel like you are able to control your world but not of us have control of the behaviour of others around us.
And afterwards the money is gone and all that is left is a hangover of the darkest proportions. Which makes us feel small, scared, less than others. With our deep dark secret making us feel vulnerable, crazy, desperate. No wonder you feel the way you feel Kin. When we are balanced, brain, body, mind it helps us to not feel less than others. And we have no need to try and be superior to others. Glad you are posting Kin.
Laura
take care,
laura