thanks i-did-it i am starting to connect with the powerless only when we place the first bet statement, i didn’t really get it before.
day 11, pay day at midnight tonight and i feel good about it, i cant wait to transfer into my savings account, won’t be much but that’s not important, the rest is going to pay last months gambling debts and although its annoying, at least i am not sat there wondering how am i going to pay everyone like i usually am on payday.
felt good this morning, slept well and went for a long walk in the woods before i go to work in an hour. i wondered why i feel ok and despite trying to get loads of vitamins into my body to make up for the last six months of poor nutrition, i realised that yesterday the first appointment was made with my counsellor which is next tuesday after work, nervous and looking forward to it at the same time and i think it’s what’s actually helping me abstain. i am a little curious to why i have been allocated 12 sessions instead of the 6-10 that is normally recommended.
i am hoping to be working all weekend again too, that will equate to 9 of the 15 extra days i set myself to regain some of my lost finances, exhausting but yet another valuable lesson as 1 working saturday is what i would place on a single bet, several times a day if i could get my hands on the money. i have gambled some serious working hours but for today
i will not gamble! 🙂
