Sadly I have no support in the UK, it appears that I have none in real life. I have been in the chat room a few times and received some good advice.
I did just do a runner in the end, I couldn’t face my debts, I know I have only deferred them for now and will eventually have to face up to them.
I am currently living in a tent and working cash in hand, so with no money and no cards I cannot gamble, so at least I am not making my situation worse.
It really was not a good plan, it is lonely and isolating and I miss my fiancee dreadfully, I messed her about with my gambling, the depression it caused and how it made be behave. I would do anything to turn back the clock and have sought help and at least made a start on recovery before I told her. We found each other late in life and now due to me have lost each other.
Wallowing in self pity right now, I will try and make the chat later on.
