Hey Ze2019 do you notice that by virtue of not having access to any money and by sharing your experiences you are able to say that you are NOT gambling? You might not appreciate the positive aspect of sharing your experience – it reminds me and countless others of what it used to be like. Who really knows how many other people might be anonymously following your thread and identifying with your situation?
Let me offer some observations. No disease that I can think of is actually run by big companies. Your solution is not in the companies that make huge profits from gambling. Rather the solution is in you. Take a look in the mirror and yes, you’re now looking at the problem.
I strongly endorse the suggestions that Steev has made. Get rid of your access to money; debit cards, bank cards, credit cards, cash, everything. Entrust them to your wife. Ask her to give you pocket money on a daily basis. Of course you should explain to her what has happened and why you want her to hold all this stuff. This is simply to get you through the next few months without gambling. A critical moment for you is when you next get paid – if you cannot access this money then you cannot gamble it away in 24 hours. Not gambling it means no exploding head either.
I used to bet in the bookies; a few weeks after I had stopped I found myself thinking it would be a nice idea to drop into the various bookies I used to frequent to give my ‘mates’ Christmas cards!!! Some more experienced people than I was at that time rolled about in laughter at this idea when I shared it with them bu they readily understood this was my version of the insanity of compulsive gambling. Thank goodness I had the benefit of their advice and for once I acted on it.
Good luck and try to keep it nice and simple by not gambling for one day at a time. Forget tomorrow or next week or next month – today is the day and try to get through it and get your head down on the pillow without any form of gambling.