That’s exactly how gambling makes us feel. Totally dejected. Well done on seeking help with your gambling problem. You have come to the right place. Gambling is a progressive disease that sucks the life out of those who persist in trying to beat the machines. Apart from losing money, we lose our self respect, dignity ,and above all precious time which can never be replaced. You will not regret walking away from this scourge. It’s not easy to stay stopped, but with support, it is possible.
I wish you well in recovery.
Keep posting.